Been so long…..
I’m not sure what I want to say anymore via this channel. Been thinkin about it, just not sure. A lot has happened in my life in an extremely short period of time. I’ll share soon when/where I decide it’s appropriate.
Peace
Random Edits
My friends are awesome.
I’m so ready to be alone with my thoughts.
I feel like things are getting better.
For some reason, my goals appear clearer. There are a few things I’ve placed on the back burner for years. Not anymore. Life is too short.
I’m thankful for my brother. He’s a hardworking man.
My brother makes me want to karate’ chop him sometimes.
Despite the pain, I am blessed and I know God is looking out for me.
Days
Good days are beginning to out -weigh the bad days.
Thankfully.
Danger
Why do folks make my stuff about them? I am “dealing” with one of the most hurtful situations ever and the people I care for most expect…whatever… from me. I am trying to function, simply function without falling off the cliff.
Why are my friends asking me to go to Play Date? To “the club?”
Even If ”THIS” wasn’t the fight of my life, I wouldn’t go to the dagon club or to Play Date.
When I tell them, “No,” it appears as if they get upset. I know they’re trying their best to take my mind off of things, but let me do me. Don’t get upset if I don’t go with or call you. This doesn’t mean I don’t care about you or how you’re trying your best. It means I’m trying my best to deal and not fall off the cliff. It means I really don’t want to be asked the same questions or pretend. It means I’m not good company right now.
Thank you for trying.
I’ve never traveled “THIS” road and can only manage it the way I CAN HANDLE IT.
Please!!!!!
Blue
Sadness
23 days
The 23 days since my last post have been the hardest, most challenging and stressful, traumatic, etc days of my entire life. I have opened my laptop only once in 23 days. No need. No desire. No motivation.
I’m hurting and in pain. Considered allowing the blog to disappear into oblivion…still considering.
What do I have to say?
Too much
Some days too much is too much.
Some afternoons too much is too much.
Some nights too much is too much.
